Page 496 - Hope

Today I stood up in front of my whole school and told them about my life.

My mom being 18 when she had me, the struggles of every day life with her and drugs, and when she tried to commit suicide.

I hope someday everyone can accept where they came from and make something great.

Since I started to read this site I have been starting to glance at people's wrists.

Because now, I now I am not alone.

I have no one left, but you.

I feel like I'm losing everything. I try to tell you, but I guess you just don't understand how depressed I am. Or you just don't care.

Please just understand. I need you to.

I try to wish at 11:11 every night.

Tonight, I didn't wish for love, or money, or fame, or a large circle of friends. I wished for one thing.

Something I haven't had in a long time. I wished for happiness.

I have lost hope.

In myself, my family, my friends, and my school.

You probably think "oh, this is another one of those 'i want to kill myself' secrets", well it isn't.

I f-ing love life, I love being alive, even though I have little to nothing to live for, I won't give up.