You may ask why.
Its because I want to know who would care enough to visit me in the hospital...
And cry over my funeral.
But today in the shower I tried something.
I know have fresh pink scratches on my stomach, legs, arms, and back.
I'm scared either some one will find them.
I'm more scared that if I wear short sleeve no one will notice or care.
Even though I have no reason to, which just makes me hate myself even more.
I'm slowing losing the will to live.
I just need a reason to stay alive.
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Some awesome lists!
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Everything would be so much easier.
No more pain, hurt, troubles.
I can't help but have these thoughts & feelings.
As easy as it would be to just die.
I couldn't leave my family- I love them to much.
Theyre the ones that are keeping me alive.
That way, I will ruin my health, and help hers a little bit more.
