Page 982 - Self-esteem

I'm anorexic.

If I can't be in control of my life at least I can be in control of my weight.

Right mom and dad?

Last night I had a dream you saved my life.

Today you noticed I was wearing darker clothes and checked my wrists for any cuts, and laughed saying you knew I wouldn't.

Truth is I wish you would have moved the bracelets.

Yes, it is true.

You will ask me if it is a rumor. Dumb question.

The video is real, and it destroyed my friendship with my best friend.

She wonders why I hate her.

Maybe because I hear whispers down the halls of me kissing a girl.

So what if I did? I bet you did too.

I was helping a man with cerebral palsy, named Chris, garden with a shovel, when out of the blue, he told me, "You are so beautiful.

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Chris doesn't know it, but he is the only person that has ever told me that.

I'm anorexic, and I ate three meals that day.

Thank you, Chris. You saved me.

Just because there isn't any cuts, doesn't mean there's not pain.

Just because I eat, doesn't mean I feel comfortable in my body.

Just because I have a smile on my face, doesn't mean it's genuine.

And just because you don't hit me, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

It's called verbal abuse.