Page 569 - Love

Mattie, I love you.

You've always told me you were afraid to get close to people, because you wouldn't know what to do if they died. He's still abusing you.

Please, PLEASE get help. You mean the world to me, and I NEED you to be safe.

Please. 

Were close now, close friends.

But every time I see you I feel a rush. Deep inside its always a rush, cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me, is just too much.

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?

I wish I had to courage to tell you how I feel.

Today, I found out that my dad may have a form of cancer.

I've never been more scared in my life.

There's too much here for me to write in a few hundred words.

I'll sum it up by saying; I'm male.

My first boyfriend cheated on me 28 times with different girls.

My second raped me twice, and abused me whenever we were alone.

Everyone else rejected me until I met you. I love you. You saved me.

My girlfriend has always made me feel wanted, always been there for me, always done everything just to see me smile.

Today, I broke her heart.

The one thing she asked of me was that I keep myself safe.

This is going to be the hardest promise I've ever kept.