Is it possible for me to say.

That I've finally given up on life?

I was physically abused until I was 9.

Until one day I yelled 'stop!

That day, the verbal abuse started.

4 years until graduation.

4 years left. Im leaving, and I'm never coming back.

4 years from now.

GUILTY

I did it, I finaly went and got the meds, the meds I needed, the ones mum said, I'd never get, and I couldn't be more proud.

So why do I feel so guily when I take them each day?

Is it because I went behind her back?

The 7 of us used to be friends.

Why do you hurt both emotionally and physically?

You say I that I do the same things.

But why would I do that stuff to you guys?

Why did I ever think that you would accept me?

Tell me why you hate me so much..

Today, I woke up and realised that who I am is not 'in spite of' what's happened to me.

It's because of the bulimia, depression, bipolar, self-harm, surgeries, sexual assault and bullying, I am strong.

If I can beat that, I can beat anything.

My secret is yours too - Have hope.

Xo.