Haven't you gotten a truancy report yet?
Callirhoe commented on Six Billion Secrets
Please try not to be so ignorant of the issues you comment on. Social anxiety is not something to be dismissed so easily. Also, being a hermit does not mean s/he is unhealthy or uneducated. In fact, s/he has better grammar and spelling than most high school graduates I know!
Callirhoe commented on Six Billion Secrets
That was incredibly rude. This person has come on here to share their secret without being judged. Then here you are, putting the OP down. Before you say ANYTHING bad about people, learn the facts. You do not know how this person feels, so you have no right to put them down. I'm offended by your comment, even though I'm not selectively mute. You should do a little research before saying something like that, ever again. "Speak" is a wonderful book by Laurie Halse Anderson, about a girl that becomes selectively mute. I'd suggest you read that before hopping to conclusions about someone with selective mutism being immature. S/he explained her/himself in the first part, and they should not have to deal with immature children like you insulting them. You need to shut up and learn facts before you do anything like that again.
Callirhoe commented on Six Billion Secrets
Maybe your reading sixbillionsecrets too much...
There are loads of reason the thought of sex freaks you out, like your not ready to have sex >< Not everyone likes being touched, doesn't mean they were sexual abused, and men are scary to young children.
Why do people all jump to the "I must of been abused" conclusion?
hey stop hitting on them! They never said they were going to wrongly accuse someone. You know it kills me to know that this is a place for people to share their secrets without getting judged and guess what, they still get judged! If I were you I would talk to your family, tell them your concerns. If they get mad at you just tell them why you think. Hopefully they'll understand.
All of the things you described are normal. People touching you for a long time IS uncomfortable. Being scared of men as a young kid is normal and is more likely resulting from all the "don't talk to strangers" campaigns than from abuse. If you are young, sex will freak you out, that is normal, it is also normal to be intrigued by it. It sounds as if you are a completely normal person with no proof of abuse, stop looking for the worst in everything.
Callirhoe commented on Six Billion Secrets
I am only pre-diabetic but my parents make me eat as if I were full blown diabetic and honestly it does suck in that aspect. I am a recovering annorexic and bulimic and because I too have to eat regularly to stop from getting the shakes or passing out, it is keeping me from my dream body (the same one as the OP's). To all of you here who are pointing out that being skin and bone is gross, please realize that to a girl who has never seen what her ribs look like and whose thighs have always touched and who gets her cheeks pinched because they are "soooo cute and chubby", a stick like figure would be a blessing. OP I feel for you and while I am glad that you are staying alive, I am sorry that you are not able to look how you want to. I just want you to know that you are beautiful to me and to please keep smiling because you will win the heart of a guy who will love you just the way you are.
"Too late to fix it"? My Aunt Dawnie has Type 1 diabetes as well, and she's lost over 120 pounds (she had a weight problem for most of her life). It's never too late to lose weight.
She said "It's so sad I have to inject needles in my skin every day to stay alive." in a secret about being pretty. She says it as if using the itty bitty tee-iny insulin needles are ruining her "pretty" skin, or as if regulating her glucose makes her fat.
Even if it WAS assumed, it's not too far of a stretch. OP sounds vapid enough to be somebody who'd say "diabetics are ugly".
Some people need to feel pretty to feel like they are worth anything. Those of us who have always been overweight and always been teased for it and always have had to look at the skinny people around us and how happy they are, are the ones that wish to be pretty like that. Not many people give the fat girl a second glance unless it is to point a finger and laugh, this I am all too familiar with. So is it really that bad to want to feel pretty?
What do you think is worse? Feeling the need to starve yourself so you think you are beautiful or teasing someone so much to make them think they aren't beautiful in the first place?
I know just how the OP feels. I was teased so much from preschool to now which I am in year 11 for being fat. Which I know I am an average weight but I keep thinking "If I just loose a little bit of weight they will stop, that the voices in my head telling me I'm fat will stop. I want so bad to be able to starve myself but I can't because if I don't eat every few hours I get the shakes and pass out. I however am not diagnosed with diabetes because my mother refuses to take me.
If I am shallow for wanting them to stop and for the voices to stop, then yes I am fucking shallow.
Sorry but I just have to say this. Do you really think the teasing is going to stop just because you lost a whole bunch of weight? I honestly don't. In fact, I'm sure that if they stop teasing you about that, then they will just move onto something else. It may be your hair, your nose, your waist, or your toes. They will find something to make your life a little more shitty. Why? Because they need someone to tease. Which is why I think you should stop doing all this stuff to stop the teasing and instead do something to better yourself.
But, whatever. At the end of the day, its your choice and your life.
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One of my best friends is type one diabetic. She has a pump, and no real weight problem. =/
She also doesn't revolve her damn life around it. She's a whole person, who just happens to need to check her blood sugar. It's not a pity party every time I'm around her. If it were, I would stop giving a damn. You sound obnoxious to be around, and like you think your disease is the only reason your life isn't perfect. Get over it. Everyone has problems.
Callirhoe commented on Six Billion Secrets
i know a lot of people are putting up bad comments but mine, its going to be different. a secret is a secret. who cares if people think it is in question form. to me, this is wonderful, someone is finally standing up for people like me. yes there are other reasons, but the one you shared is one of the top ones. please dont listen to the others that commented on here. they are just doing this to put you down.
I hate myself. I hate myself pretty damned often. I cut for four years, but I stopped because I didn't want to see the pain in my friends eyes every time my sleeve slipped. I still hate myself. There is no "point" that you get to if you cut yourself. Every single time you cut, you hit a new low. While you're doing it it feels wonderful. For me, I felt like I deserved it. But after, when you look down at what you did, you hate yourself even more. How this made it through and my real secrets havent, I'll never know. But if you're someone who never has and you're just judging, fuck yourself. But if you're questioning how you came to this "point" with the rest of us, be strong. I'm not going to tell you that i'll become easier. It won't. But you'll overcome it.
I agree. Like, I know the "You are beautiful" crap never gets anyones attention, but your body was born precious. Your skin is new, your new to everything. Why would you want to destroy that beauty instead if destroying something else? Like, break something instead of cutting on your precious skin.. Do something else!
Do you know the amount of pride some people take in getting branded and tattooed? It's the same actions for a different purpose and with a different result. Not everyone is going to have the same exact emotional prompting to engage in a self-harm behavior. Maybe you should take a deep breath and either talk to whomever it is you're yelling at, or ignore them and move on because they're not worth he effort.
Kind of related story, my friend back in I think 10th grade in shop class that we had together decided he wanted to brand his arm one day. Some other people in the class heated up some metal and pressed it to his arm. His mom was really mad at him for it. It looked nasty for a while too. My friend also said it didn't really hurt when the metal touched his arm, it was just the days afterwards that it hurt.
This post is extremely irritating.
So I'm just gonna throw in a comment about how not everyone who self harms does it because they hate themselves. for some people, it's a coping mechanism for trauma. some people are just a bit masochistic and like doing it. Some people have other reasons for it.
Anyway, shut up, OP.
Even with social anxiety, that's not good. You need to get out or otherwise your life shall be wasted.